Saturday, January 21, 2012

soul searching

I have been quiet for awhile on here, so I thought I would give a little update. This will be a rambling collection of my recent thoughts, so I apologize in advance. Being raised as an "air force brat" & moving about every 4 years of my childhood, you would think that moving to a completely new place would be an easy task. & while the transition has been pretty smooth, being an adult & moving to a completely new town comes with its own set of hiccups.

Friends:: It's actually kind of hard to make friends as an adult, I find myself being so much more apprehensive about just throwing myself out there. I know we have only been here for a month but I am at a loss as to where to begin with this step. Where do you find people your own age & with the same interests?! I think as adults, even if we don't like to admit it, we worry so much more about what new people will think about us. It's not as easy as sharing your pudding cup with the cute girl that sits next to you in the first grade & then becoming bffs....I mean, if I just walked around asking people to share my pudding cup now, I am pretty sure someone would call the authorities.

Job:: Okay, so this is probably too in-depth of a subject to tackle without having its own full post. BUT I decided upon moving here & with the husband going back to school that I wanted to transition into a slightly more stable, full-time job outside of the home & outside of Pleasantly Plump [Knits.]. This left a lot of questions as to what I was going to do with my little handmade business & really what direction I wanted to pursue. I found & applied to a company that I thought would be right up my alley creativity wise, something that would create that spark in me that leaves me motivate & fulfilled. Without going into too lengthy of an explanation, I was hired & worked a full week there & decided that it really wasn't for me. The company was great, but the job position just didn't fill my needs & it wasn't fair to me or the company to stay there. This was a hard pill to swallow for me, I have never accepted a position somewhere & decided within the week to not return. I went through several emotions- guilt, feeling like I had failed, a little embarrassed, & worrying that my family & friends would think I was crazy...but at the end of the day I know that this is my one life to live. I get to make up the rules & I also get to make the decisions that will make me the happiest & grow as a person. The other side of taking that job meant that I would have to shut down my shop, at least to made-to-order transactions.  I never realized how weird & almost painful that would be to do, I have put my shop into vacation mode plenty of times in the almost 4 years I have had it, but this felt different, it felt permanent & it also felt like I was losing one of my best friends. So, I still have no answers for this subject, I am still going to pursue another job but Pleasantly Plump [Knits.] will stay open for the time being. Is it crazy to wish for a happy medium?! A job I love outside of my handmade business but one that leaves me refreshed & motivated enough to continue to pursue & grow Pleasantly Plump [Knits.]?! I don't know the answer right now, but I am going to continue to try to find it.

Location:: This is actually the fun & upbeat part of our move. Overall, I am SO happy we decided to take this huge leap. I love where we live & wake up every morning & look out our windows to those gorgeous mountains & thank my lucky stars that we were able & brave enough to move here. Boulder, Colorado is an absolutely stunning place!! I feel safe here & feel that sense of belonging. I feel overly grateful & excited about our adventure daily. I have beautiful parks & walking/biking trails right outside of our door.  The pugs & I take daily walks & discover new & beautiful things every time we go out. & can we talk about the sunrises & sunsets here, good gracious! Also, the weather here is so different than Georgia, normally gorgeous baby blue skies & sunny but will drop a few inches of snow every few weeks. I can honestly say that I love it & I seriously can't wait to see what spring & summer brings.

I guess that really brings my life up to speed. I am looking forward to this year & trying to convince my friends & family to come out & visit. I wish they would all just move here, I want to share it so bad! If you made it this far in my post, thanks for reading!! I am looking forward to getting on a more frequent posting schedule, I've missed blogging. Happy Weekend from Colorado to you! hugs & cheek pecks, Meghan


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4 comments:

  1. i am going through the same thing right now, just moved to a new place, trying to figure out the new job and new friend situation. good luck! let me know if you have any ideas on how to handle all this!

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    1. I will definitely let you know if I figure any of it out... :) Good luck to you as well!

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  2. i just found your little blog! i love your style already. i also just moved away from home. colorado is beautiful!! i am from utah and now live in north dakota. haha. it's not funny, but it is. where is home for you?!

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    1. Thanks Heidi!! Both Utah & North Dakota sound fun!! I am from Atlanta, GA, so Colorado is quite the change! I am loving every second so far....

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